OK, folks. Since you were wondering, here’s how the rest of my summer is shaping up, in detailed schedule form:
Today: I was in lovely Massachusetts, with my Grandmother.
Tomorrow-July 26: Work
July 27-August 4: Los Angeles, CA, to visit my super-cool aunt and uncle (I’m pretty darn excited).
August 5: FREE DAY! woohoo.
August 6-10: Work (my last full week!)
August 11-12: Boston, to hang out with awesome people (? hopefully).
August 13-15: Last days of work! 
August 16: Major packing.
August 17: Drive to Nashville.
August 18: Move into my cozy new dorm room.
August 19 onward: Party nonstop. Just kidding! More like school, work, school, go to shows so my ears can be happy, school, work, etc…
And in addition to all that, I also want/need to see the following people before I leave for Nashville: Laura, Sabrina and Kim (for our quadruple step-sibling date night!), Leah and Sarah (at the same time, perhaps?), and Lucia, and probably someone else that I’m forgetting. So if you are one of those people, let’s see each other. Ok? Ok. Love you.
kisses (but only if you don’t have germs),
Jill
Jealous Kind [4:10m]:
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This is the finale of the “Lyrics That Define My Life At This Particular Moment In Time” series.
Sometimes when I don’t listen to them for awhile, I forget how much I like Jars of Clay. It was tough to choose just one of their songs for this, because all of their lyrics are so honest and relevant, but I chose this one, because it is one of the most beautiful and honest and hopeful songs that I’ve ever heard.
I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
Sought the company of fools instead of friends
You know I’ve been unfaithful
With lovers in lines
While you’re turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
But hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Tryin’ to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
For solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I’d rather feel the pain all too familiar
Than be broken by a lover I don’t understand
‘Cause I don’t understand
One hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise, betrays the heart’s deceit and lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride
You know I’ve been unfaithful
With lovers in lines
While you’re turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind.
-Lyrics by Jars of Clay. Listen to the song here.
Empty Words [4:18m]:
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“Lyrics That Define My Life At This Particular Moment In Time”, Part 5.
There’s this little thing called humility that I don’t have. And I want it.
I want to see
I want to feel
I want to love
With no conditions
I’m gonna lie
I’m gonna steal
I’m gonna hear
But never listen
Oh, all that I need is something of worth
It could be what you are
And feel these empty words…
I want to learn
Teach me to know
Teach discontent
And teach me submission
But I’m gonna smile
Oh, I am a fake
All for the sake
Of my reputation
All that I need is something of worth
It could be what you are
And feel these empty words
Feel these empty words…
Take all my pride from me.
And feel these empty words…
-Lyrics by Lorien. Listen to the song here.
I need Jesus. I need him so much.
And I’m sorry that I’ve been so down and so selfish lately. And I’m sorry for being a jerk. I’m going to be better now. I promise.
I love you.
Jill
Darkroom - Afraid [5:11m]:
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Part 4. If you don’t know what’s going on, go read previous blogs.
This song is perfect. Except for the schoolboy part. Cause, you know, I’m not a boy. Nor do I go to school. But aside from that, perfect.
This time of year, I step back
From my whimsical orientation I have cast
Seasons have passed, they’ve come and gone
Along with my youth and aren’t coming back
This point of view, it’s not fact
It’s all my fallen humanity and my schoolboy fantasies
Oh to be true and give up this act
Would be freedom to live at last
And it’s all I can do to keep my breath
From slowly departing away
The winds are strong now
They keep blowing at my ever so fragile heart
But you are here to stay
And I am here to say I’m afraid.
-Lyrics by Darkroom. Listen to the song here.
Two Decades [5:43m]:
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“Lyrics That Define My Life At This Particular Moment In Time”, Part 3.
So it’s rare that I find a song that says exactly what I’m thinking. Very rare. And then along comes isHesafe, and about 96.84% of their songs say exactly what I want to say. Especially this one:
Two decades later
Twenty times failure
Here I am
To make myself greater than I’ve been
Now is a good time
Now is a good time
Now is a good time
To begin
So much to change
Make me new
So much to change
Lord, make your promises true in me
So much to change
Make me new
Two decades later
The hands of the savior
Are scarred by the nails where
They should be in mine
Forgetting his grace is
Forgetting his grace is
Forgetting his grace is
Not affected by time
There’s so much to change
There’s so much…
-Lyrics by isHesafe. Stream the song here.
